I was more than excited for 2009 to come to a close. I was a year full of ups and downs as there is with any year. But to me, it felt like more of jerky tilt-a-whirl than a fun exhilaration roller coaster. I had some career highs (getting an agent at UTA, hosting AOTS) and some personal lows (losing my father). Despite the many blessings that came my way this past year, I am ready to start fresh and embrace a clean slate. I am excited to schluff off the dead weight of the past decade and take in all the glorious things this new one has to offer. I’m not big on resolutions because I feel like they are unattainable goals people set just to forget about them a month after the ball drops. So, instead I aim to better myself and set realistic goals for the year. This year I would like to finally learn the guitar that is collecting dust in my bedroom, learn a language, send less text messages and make more calls, and to get involved with more charity work. Above all of these little side projects, I just want to have a peaceful year. I know that’s a lofty wish, but I think its possible. After all, I have all the tools to make it a reality. One of the most important things I’ve learned in recent years is that we alone control whats going on inside our hearts and minds. If I want peace, I can have it. I just have to conscious be aware of my state of mind and keep reminding it to go back to a peaceful place. After my dad passed, a therapist I was seeing told me to imagine the ocean whenever I get irritated. It really does help. The beach is the perfect calm place for me, so to visualize it really helps me to find my center again. It’s a simple act that has a huge impact. When I say I want a peaceful 2010, I mean spiritually, emotionally and in my relationships. Sometimes in this crazy business, its easy to get frustrated, endlessly worry and want to force things. I’m just as guilty as the next actor. But this year, my goal is to just let things happen. I realize how little control I have over casting decisions etc that its best to just do the work and let the cards fall as they will. So the next time a casting director scolds me for not wearing my hair exactly as it looks in my head shot and I feel my blood start to boil, I’ll just close my eyes, and picture the glorious Pacific. Serenity now.
Here’s to a joyous, healthy, peaceful 2010